Saturday, September 18, 2004
Yoz...back again...finally glad to be home...haha.. I jus came back not long. Now's lyk 12.10am...OoPz...Tiredz.
Today was an average "boring" day. Had MB pract tiz mornz. Good to haf Mr. Chow back
..how dearly we miss u sia! When compared to that sickening t-cher, Chow best liao. She dunno how to explain nvm..still teach us wrong stuff..wad the...=S...oh.. den today had to draw so many tables..den all the conclusion parts made the whole class so blurz..sian diao...den sorri Kelvin, i ignored u unintentionally cos everyone ask moi den i also 1/2 way thru blur alr...keke...paiseh..and jeremy too..forgot to teach u mb...will teach u if u still dunno e next time. =P
Den aft was math stats. I ULTIMATELY dislike it lo...formulas are long and t-cher sux...so ma fan! grr...nvm..anyway, jeremy seems quite angry cos he act ask if we wanna go out aft sch..but every1 drag drag drag..den in the end he so pissed he walked str out of lect hall w/o saying a word..sian diao...hope he's alright lor...its small matter..really.
Wadeva..sch end le..den i happily wanna go hm but jj ask me out..den i agreed alr..but realized i lag behind alot for my work..so decided to reject..den aft compromising..he agreed to go study wif me at my hm there..wahahaha...met him ard 6+pm...did my work till 11pm...den we went to my hse the park there..he do his pull up i did my sit ups and stuff.whaah..den we go hm...reach hm late again...sianz...now always so late reach hm until i anyday reach hm early my parents will give me the "i-dun-believe-u-r-not-going-out-later look" ..den sis nag...haha...
But honestly, i m quite sick of whole day being out..i wan a break...i m not stressed up..i jus wan a rest...sorta miss staying at hm or hanging out wif my fren alr...yest 1 of my fren was lyk..when u free to go out arh? u make sure when U can make it first cos I seem to be more free than u although I having As...sian diaoz again...wahaha..
Wadeva the case...tiz is wad i chose....n i hav to make it right...=P
E things tt i do not lyk in U...r E things i fight in me...but when i battle them in U...its easier to win...
1:06 AM
Thursday, September 16, 2004
hey pple...back to blog...but not gonna blog long..cos my eyes can jus close any moment alr! haha...damn tiredz lor! Yesterday typed out IAC's interviews and as i type i can fall aslp lyk the next second...den got so much to type sia...did until 2+..3am den slp lor! I started doin ard 11+pm...cos be4 tt was rushing to prepare sth for OCOM...so ya....*yawnz...
woke up ard 5+am...reluctantly..den go sch...for vball SW...act only need to run 5 rounds ard the 2 vball courts..but cos some gals behind din run..so ran 7 rounds..den do warm up...train basics..and next..IAC...Nicholas din turn up...and we had to do a short PRESENTATION! Wad the.....!!!! Why tis whole week must present so many times arh? ARGH!!! Sian DIAO lor...but ok la..turn out quite ok...hahaz.. After, i went lib complete OCOM...write out speaker notes..den 3pm went to present...4pm released..went back lib,..slack..did a little bit of IAC...den went for vball again...
tis time...we had to run 3 rounds ard track...sian 1/2. But ya..i ran...den we went to do basics again...but tis time also got learn to really spike ball..den i manage to spike wif my right hand instead of left! [when i m a left hander]...den i tink i m really a blind rat when its dark cos i cant hit the ball when we are at darker parts of the court. -_-lll
yah..finish ard 9...den ya...i got hm by 10pm..and blah blah blah...hahaz..today i m not gonna do anytihn...not even study...or wad..cos i cant conc...hahaz...so crapping here...anyway, recently has been too preoccupied wif work to tink of any other tinks alr...so ya....pls understand kkz? Gimme a break...
11:07 PM
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
hey peeps...long time no c..y? cos i couldn't type thru my laptop...but guess wad? now i can...using netscape 7.2...wahahaha....lao tian you yan...haha...anyway..its been a tiring..tiring..TIRING week! Everything is piling up to a mountain of dung lor...lotsa projects which i jus wanna get over wif as fast as possible..lotsa tutorials tt i lag and wanan complete..lotsa revision i didn't do...lotsa cca training i wanna go but cant go...lotsa upcoming tests...and lotsa probs tt i hafta face but haf no time to worry 'bout it now. =(
No time!!! Grr...cant even go for my check up lo...wad the....anyway..jus got over chem presentation yest..haha...hun shui mo yu..manage to bluff thru..haha...onli spent 2 hours doin lor...luckily it was easy..but tml mb v ma fan lo..still hav to write down on transparency..den present..den dunno wad debate la..so wu liao...gimme time to Zzz la...lolx... wadeva...aft tml den 2 presentations over le...
But sad case...once i reach hm tml gotta rush to do IAC (at least show her evidence of our interview, which is the onli tink we'd done)...den also my OCOM presentation....OCOM ah OCOM...so sickening..its only for public speaking wad...why must make until so big lyk tt...still must dress formally and hav dry run somemore...madness..
Oh...tis thur got vball training attachment..den sat got friendly match wif other classes..hahaz...aft tt den S&W over!!!!!!! yeah...good...
Happy for awhile..den back to reality...aft 2 pros are done...next week gotta realli complete OCOM and IAC..and we start to haf so many class tests....den next? ExamZZ!! wHo's tt idiotic person who told me poly slack arh? Ka Pui! Damnz *stomp feet*..lolx
Nvm...i am feelin all numb now..cos now was i need is some slp..haven been slping for more than 4 hours a day...tink the most 3 hours plus a day onli...life span shorten alr...choy..hahaz...ok la...enuff la...gotta cont moi pro alr...ciao...
10:04 PM
Sunday, September 05, 2004
Hey now i happen to be using my sis com now so i might as well blog a little...Been thinking alot these few days tt few tt my mind is on the verge of exploding le...Things haven really improved and bam, another load...why? Its not as if i deserve it lo...hai...act i dunno how much shld i blog down here...i would lyk to isolate my tots to myself but i still seep a little abt my troubles on tiz blog..haha...
I find myself realli useless nowadays la...cos i cant seem to be wad pple expects me to be...not tt i would wanna live life for them...but i feel tt i fail as a real friend..as a lover...as whateva i tink i shld've been...maybe right from the start...
As a fren..i guess i m not worthy...cos i guess i m selfish at my tots...i bottled lotsa stuff inside me...n nv really intend to say it out till tinks got better or worse..and some pals blame me for it ...saying tt i m not truthful enuff for them...some even got jealous when i confide in another fren but not to him/her. I jus dun realli lyk to repeat tinks and if u happen to be tt lucky sum1 whom i hav told...den be it...is tis really a selfish act ? hai...i hav known u for lyk 6yrs alr..and i m sorri tt u still dunno much abt me...altho' i noe so much abt u..maybe tt's y we r drifting ba...maybe aft befriending me for so long...been thru so much wif me...u realized tt we aren't best pals as we used to call each other...maybe...i m the cause of our misery...but cant friendship be simpler w/o all tt jealousy n spite?
i still rem tt day when aft so long of spite n war i willingly made my way to ur sch [altho not to purposely meet ya but to grab a file from my other fren] and called ya to see if u are still in sch...but ur cold reply realli turn me off...den when we spotted each other ur sch by luck..cos we never set to met, u didn't even care...jus merely said hi...in the end...it was ur classmates n my ex-sch mates tt seemed to cared abt my existance more than u do....wad's wrong...?
4 of us...were best pals...now...onli 3 of us are left....i dunno the real prob lies wif who...but how come if i am at fault, our other 2 pals told me to give up on u...and said tt they noe all these while i m there for u but u took it for granted..?
i noe i may be at fault tt i didn't share my woes wif u...but its not as if i din try..and i DID alr..but why are u still not happy? how many a times we 4 had quarrels...but we made up n we felt it has made us stronger...but why now i feel tt it has torn u and us apart? Why cant u n us come to a consensus tt we have grown... tinks ard us may hav changed...But we 3 nv stopped caring for u...let's c...now 1 of us is in ur sch...but u 2 nv talked...another is in another jc..but u 2 nv contact too..and me? Haiz...i dunno wad else u realli wan from me...i realli wanna giv up on u...but wheneva i c u again...i wanna regain our frenship...tis is why our other 2 pals always say tt our doors are 4eva open for u...but always slam it back at our faces from time to time...Now all of u 3 taking As tiz yr...its an impt yr for all of us...but most to u 3...bless u all kkz...and hope tis will not affect anyone of us...and hopefully by the end of tiz yr...tinks will get better...i m willing to giv all of us time...time for space..time for reflection n time for personal changes for the better i guess...
As a lover..i hav failed too i guess...always indecisive and bringing frowns to pple...haiz...maybe i jus dun wanna be hurt..sum1..and similarly..i dun wanna hurt sum1 else at the same time too...Perhaps i still duno wad's love...i dun express it well and i dun say it often...cos Love's a strong word...perhaps my heart couldn't be trusted..that's y i cant settle down...sorri to whomever it applies too...tis i wouldn't wanna touch on more abt...cos i've type damn much alr...guess frenship weighs so much more than love in my life now...that's y pple whom unfortunaetly fall for me last time said tt i m always neglecting them...hahaz.....
Yest alvin asked me and some of my classmates in an open discussion why all of us seem to say tt life sux big time now...and i was surprised too tt quite a no. of us seem to be goin thru some high tide or sth...haha...pray tt all will be well soon...i earnestly believe tt time will tell...
3:47 PM
Friday, September 03, 2004
Heya...its good to be back..act now i doing IAC the family genogram thingy..so leh chey...so ma fan..aiyo...my paternal side so many distant relatives i dunnoe...den my maternal side also becos of some probs now not on talking terms le...how to ask..how to write! Guess i m gonna crap again...
Today sch was average...did mb pract in the morn..gonna go cockeye becos of the microscope le..hahaz...den aft is maths...was stoning most of the time. Then was extra chem tutorial...be4 tt i still told moi clasmates tt i m gonna roll no the floor if i could get 75marks above..haha..den when i got back results..it was 81...oppz...den stupid classmates ask me flip...diaoz...hahaz..but yeah.. i was shock lo..tot could not even make it wan...it was a pleasant surprise lo. Heehee...
Today so guai...went hm right after sch..slp on the bus lo..so tiredz...slept at ard 3am last nite lor! hahaz...so tonite tink gonna slp earlier if can le..recuperate..haha...
Oh..and kevin sang e stupid song again today...ever since tt day..i hav been hearing tt song practically everyday ..sometimes even a few times a day..radio...streets..shopping centres...when reading blogs..argh..ITS AN ILLUSION..yesh..it is......
Darn! Tml hafta meet my IAC mates to do interview for IAC ard 11am at Orchard lo...hope it turns out well man...IAC n OCOM are such irritating/annoyin/meaningless modules..i rather switch it wif modules lyk 3rd language or sth..nvm...endure.....3more wks...haha
Ok la..gotta cont' my IAC wksht...CiAO....
7:30 PM
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Hey man...wow...haven been blogging since dunnoe how long alr. Not tt i forgot all abt it nor was i too busy. Just experiencing some prob wif my laptop. I could get into tis toopid webby but cldn't blog. I can only star at my blog and stone. Nvmx.. now i using my desktop to type..grr...keke
Anyway now my sis ard..so cant blog much. Sian 1/2. -_-lll These few days nothin much too blog too la. Been going out after my exams la..basically wanna sweat it out cos nt in a v gd mood... so went to play sports and stuff..den keep going out...dun wana stay at hm then stupidly end up hurting my feet in the end...accidentally tear my skin on the feet and it hurts till now. Luckily its recovering..if not every1 will not stop nagging at me till i go c a doc. Honestly..i worry more than all of ya cos i dun wanna anytink worse to happen lo..since...nvmx..not impt. lol......
Then finally got back mb and mst papers..scored quite well. i supposed mst was easy la..only v careless still..but mb realli shocked me cos i wasn't expecting it to turn out as well..hehe..[If jess's reading tis, hey cheerz gal..jia you together kkz? muackz!] the onli paper i m worried now is chem la..cos i no confident at all..cos i nv study... *guilty*. If i can get over 78m i roll over on the floor ah! haha..but nvm la.. try harder next time lo...anyway, its only the 1st paper i took in NP lo! hahaahahaz..
Today, biotech fair in NP. V sianz..go so early hear rubbish tok..den aft act wanan go for the forum tok..but end up goin out..hahahz...dun care!!!! lol....
Oh ya...i guess also i m still moody my mood got get slightly better la...cos me and moi fren not as hostile le..but still quite weird...and for another fren...haiz..still as bad..nvm.....hai....saw her the other day...lyk strangers and i v sad cos we care but we so cold...we are so pathetic..the tink is....there's no conflict between us...we jus....drift i guess....cant believe it...start to doubt our 6yrs of frenship alr..cos u always drift away...when we were constantly there for u....and when u wan us back..we were still there...but now? hai..nvm..i shall end here..
8:49 PM
